Over the last couple of years, life has changed a lot. Work is new and I’ve also moved home .
2 years ago I was, at this very time, travelling around Greece by Ferry having taken the decision to leave a job in an organisation I worked in for 16 years.
In another post I spoke about the need to be comfortable with being uncomfortable, particularly at a time of great change. In essence, and to pick up the theme of the Greek trip, 2 years ago I threw myself overboard and headed for a different landscape & horizon.
What followed was a period of making mistakes, frustrated attempts at doing things new, moments of triumph and celebration and ultimately a period of greater calm. Life can, and has, pulled the rug from under my feet on a number of occasions but I chose to move from the settled to something new myself, I pulled the rug!
The rewards of doing this though have been significant. I’m more open to a different view of what ‘the future’ is going to be like, more committed to making the best of how things unfold & more resilient to when things change & don’t go as planned.
But perhaps the greatest gift has been the acceptance of how life is as an experience. For a significant part of my life everything has been about getting things ordered, as perfect as they can be. Dissatisfaction has inevitably followed when this hasn’t been the case. We are all guilty of it, and yet I’ve realised beyond sensible planning, expanding energy in trying to make an imperfect world perfect is futile.
The notion of perfection is a judgement anyway, a standard our minds have set of how life should be. Against that life shows us that it will unfold as it wants. The writer Pema Chodron expresses it beautifully
It is hard to contemplate the notion of accepting certain difficult things. Our natural inclination is always to want to fix things, to make them right, or to cover them up. Approaching things differently is not to be passive but to act within an understanding of the dynamics of life, life’s perfection lies in its imperfection . Professor Stephen Hawking reminded us of the truth of life’s brilliance:
So the last 2 years have taught me that If there is one central aim of our lives, to be happier, it is more likely to come from accepting with equanimity the true nature of life. It is less likely if we seek to control what is ultimately uncontrollable with all the anxiety that brings.